Blog on hold for now

Hi everyone.

I just wanted to let you know that I am going to put my blog on hold till after the new year. I am just so busy working that I don't have a lot of computer time till late at night and then I am super tired and can't focus to write.

So after the 1st of the new year, expect to see a lot of changes on here.

Thanks for understanding.

Angie

Sorry for not posting.

Just so you know. I was in the hospital over the weekend with chest pains. Wonder why .

Anyway, Dale is also sick with the H1N1 and Hunter has a sinus infection and probably the H1N1 also.

We are all taking Tamiflu to try and get ahead. For me, it is as a precaution.

Our water heater is also out. So no hot water. We bought a new one, but can't install it until Sunday.

So on Monday I will be back to daily blogging. I figure since that is the day we are all off quarantine basically and can go back to the gym, that is when I will start.

Thanks for understanding.

Oh what a couple of days!!

Sorry about yesterday. We had a HUGE storm blow through here. Basically what it boiled down to was that yesterday it was warm, and raining all day. Then the big storms rolled in, and it went from 81 degrees to about 55 to 60 degrees within an hour or two.

PLUS..............I went to Hunter's football game and sat in the cold, wet rain for over an hour. I was soaked. Luckily, I didn't get sick!! They finally called the game for postponement and we are gonna finish it next week.

Back to regular stuff. Been having a heavy feeling in my chest, and now I have had pain running down my left arm from basically shoulder to elbow. Not sure what that is all about. I am not thinking heart attack here, more like, sore muscles from working out maybe?

Well, our water heater went out, so I am gonna go and check prices online.

Btw.........if anyone is wondering why I am talking about personal stuff on a weight loss blog, I am hoping that maybe depending on the type of day I have, I can see a pattern in my eating and maybe find out where my food weakness versus food strength fall. If that made sense at all =)

Day 2

Not sure how I should post this.
Do I put down my feelings here and post my food journal on the side? Maybe that is best.

I am not hungry this morning and know that is bad, because I am suppose to eat breakfast. I guess I will go downstairs and have some dry oat cereal or something.

They say to eat six small meals a day. That doesn't seem like much, but in reality, it is so much harder to do.

I am also going to try and find a kickboxing class. I hear they are fun.

I am just rambling. Maybe I will have more to say later. I am sure over time, this is going to become very interesting. We will see!!

Food Journal Day 1

I am also keeping a daily journal of food and exercise.
Experts say this works.............I dunno, but we will see!!

Breakfast
2 Brown Eggs served over easy, cooked in a non stick skillet
1 slice Wheat Toast, with 2 sprays of Butter
A 4oz glass of OJ (with calcium added)

Snack
1 cup of oat cereal, dry

Lunch
1 chicken drumstick
1 cup long grain and wild rice
2 tablespoons bbq sauce
1 can of diet pepsi


Snack
Skipped it, not hungry

Dinner
Chicken Fajitas (Chicken breast strips, onions and peppers)
cooked in 1 tbsp of olive oil.
Fajita seasoning mixed in 1/4 cup water.
1/2 cup rice
1/2 black beans

Gym Time
30 minutes on treadmill
5 minutes on elliptical

More Encouraging

I took a chance and told only the women in my life who I value as sisters and friends. I gave them the link to this blog. So far, the support has been wonderful!

I am so lucky to have found so many of my friends I grew up with on Facebook. I love them all dearly and the support and trust shows why all the ladies in my life are so special.

Thanks Ladies..........I LOVE YOU ALL!!

=)

In The Beginning...............

Today is the beginning of a personal journey for me. All my life, I have struggled to lose weight. When you hear someone say they have done it all............trust me, I have done it all.

Age 15....................Weight Watchers
Age 16....................Medi-Fast
Age 24....................Gastric Bypass Surgery
Age 33....................Gastric Bypass Revision Surgery
Age 34....................Gastric Bypass Revision Surgery #2

I have had 2 more surgeries since then, with the last one being on December 19, 2006. The last two surgeries were to fix hernia's. So YES, I have had my abdomen sliced open FIVE times. And for what? I am still FFFAAATTT!!!

I own almost every diet book known to man. I have taken Phen-Phen, I have done Phentermine by itself, I have even done the HCG liquid called Opti-Lean. It doesn't work. NONE OF IT!!! If you have no will power, nothing works.

Is it is my fault.........COMPLETELY!!! I am too busy taking care of everyone in my life but me. I take care of my husband...........yes SHOCKER, I am married, almost 14 years now. I take care of my son..........who is 13. My life is super busy.

I always say tomorrow I am gonna start this and tomorrow I am gonna start that. I NEVER FOLLOW THROUGH!!! Hell, I even have a membership to a 24 hour state of the art gym, that is less than 6 blocks from my house. I say, "Oh, if I could just be on the Biggest Loser", confession................I tried out for the Biggest Loser. I was the first person in line at the Norman, Oklahoma auditions a couple of months ago.......but I wasn't chosen.

So now, what is a girl to do?

Hmmmm...............let's see what my choices are:

1. Do nothing.......and continue to gain weight.
2. Take back my life.


The answer is simple. I choose to take back my life. Today, October 6, 2009, was the first time in my 40 years of life, that I broke down while taking my son to school and I said "I HATE MY LIFE". Worse.............I said it in front of my son. What kind of mother am I? Only someone sick would say that to a 13 year old.

The sad part, it is true. I do hate my life. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and I love my son and I love my God, but I don't love myself and for that, I hate my life.

But I realized something. By coming to the conclusion that I hate my life and knowing that I want to love my life. It is time for change. I have made some changes. I gave up regular soda for diet soda. I quit smoking..........the trade off was I gain 60 lbs in 2 years. I am not even sure what I weigh. I am around the 250 lb mark and being only 5'1", that is too much for my body.

I don't really have anyone to talk to, hence, this is why I created you, my handy, dandy blog. Maybe one day I will make you public, maybe not. But for now, this is for me. Some place where I can put all my thoughts and not worry about what anyone thinks. Maybe one day, through trial and error, this blog will help another person who faces the same struggles I do.

So here is to a new beginning and a new me. I am going to post a photo on here that I did for my Biggest Loser auditions. It is gross and embarrassing, but at the same time, it will make me accountable to myself. So here are my goals.

GOALS:
1. Eat healthier...........no fancy diets, just real food, no sweets and learn to balance that with real life.
2. Go to the gym daily. No excuses, just do it. Even if it is only for 10 minutes.
3. Post a weekly photo on here. So I can see the transformation.
4. Trade off diet soda for water.
5. Figure out how to add a weight loss ticker.

Ok...............so that is it. This is for me and only me. Maybe I have to be selfish, but I don't care. I deserve to be happy. When someone hates their life.............you have to fix what is broken to make it better. I am what is broken.

Goodnight from Oklahoma...........